I choose NOT to spread my genes. Not ALL bad, but definately some risk of (maybe) autism. However also chance at grad school on full scholarship, blowing the curve on advanced math courses (getting freed for last test and final because of), president of math and computer science club (natural progression, BEFORE I knew I was autistic), 3 patents (and $10 million lawsuit (still not over) DEFENDENT - over OWNERSHIP, not inventorship so much (fraud IS a side issue (on THEIR part) though).
All in all, not a rock star kind of life. WHat i THOUGHT I wanted (pop culture). Oh ALSO musician (first chair in EVERYTHING I touched).
I had hoped for wads of cash and SEX (just sex) and rotating hotties, and super cars and high rise oceanfront condos, and all thing s I was SUPPOSED (pop culture) to WANT. Never had sex unless drunk in my life. Never had a steady girlfriend, though plenty of girls who were friends and aquaintences and fuck buddies and stuff.
I feel misguided (and PAYING for it now). I don't complain. It is what it is. I took life as I FOUND it (didn't KNOW the truth at the time). Did not want to be evil. didn't KNOW how to be good I don't think. Don't know if I'll find redemption through salvations, or if God even likes me. Just hoping.
False hope. a MAIN staple of my existence.
Oh, also been told (By professors (more than one)) I have a DEFINATE talent in writing. Perhaps screenwriting COULD have been a choice. Computer science was NOT what I had HOPED it would be. TOO much evil in that field today. and when you work for somebody (I SHOULD be a BOSS by now, but INDIA (immigration/takover)), THEY call the tune you play (sort of software I'm to write).
FUck it. I'm ready to die. Good thing (good sign?) I INHERITED mom's house (I grew up in) ALso was executor (over my crooked sister) for BOTH parents wills. PAIN IN THE ASS.
paul_neri answering his alt thebearfromstartrack4 & dial making back-to-back new alt accounts, both logged in and commenting in the same thread. BlueIsAcreeper & Centeryofhate.
What a shit showm atleast its only buggering up queeri's threads.
[ + ] Centeryofhate
[ - ] Centeryofhate -1 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 04:40:07 ago (+1/-2)
I must be wrong right? no one would ever use the ccp system to censor people
https://files.catbox.moe/uwo3oy.jpg
here it begins
sad
you really need to controll this shit @system
thi is worst than cynaqueen
[ + ] Centeryofhate
[ - ] Centeryofhate -1 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 04:45:25 ago (+1/-2)
like how fucking retarded can one be @system
-dial
yet im the crazy one
[ + ] PhimoticEmbrace
[ - ] PhimoticEmbrace 2 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:06:49 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] BlueIsAcreeper
[ - ] BlueIsAcreeper -1 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:09:35 ago (+1/-2)
you need to fucking stop this, system... or you will fail
I was the one that countered them, realputt understood this
never forget forget the 3 global stickies, and putt and i were always cool
[ + ] thebearfromstartrack4
[ - ] thebearfromstartrack4 1 point 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:09:27 ago (+2/-1)
All in all, not a rock star kind of life. WHat i THOUGHT I wanted (pop culture). Oh ALSO musician (first chair in EVERYTHING I touched).
I had hoped for wads of cash and SEX (just sex) and rotating hotties, and super cars and high rise oceanfront condos, and all thing s I was SUPPOSED (pop culture) to WANT. Never had sex unless drunk in my life. Never had a steady girlfriend, though plenty of girls who were friends and aquaintences and fuck buddies and stuff.
I feel misguided (and PAYING for it now). I don't complain. It is what it is. I took life as I FOUND it (didn't KNOW the truth at the time). Did not want to be evil. didn't KNOW how to be good I don't think. Don't know if I'll find redemption through salvations, or if God even likes me. Just hoping.
False hope. a MAIN staple of my existence.
Oh, also been told (By professors (more than one)) I have a DEFINATE talent in writing. Perhaps screenwriting COULD have been a choice. Computer science was NOT what I had HOPED it would be. TOO much evil in that field today. and when you work for somebody (I SHOULD be a BOSS by now, but INDIA (immigration/takover)), THEY call the tune you play (sort of software I'm to write).
FUck it. I'm ready to die. Good thing (good sign?) I INHERITED mom's house (I grew up in) ALso was executor (over my crooked sister) for BOTH parents wills. PAIN IN THE ASS.
[ + ] BlueIsAcreeper
[ - ] BlueIsAcreeper 2 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:15:26 ago (+4/-2)
-dial is in chill mode
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri [op] 0 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:16:03 ago (+2/-2)
[ + ] UncleDoug
[ - ] UncleDoug 2 points 3.4 yearsDec 23, 2021 05:40:17 ago (+2/-0)
paul_neri answering his alt thebearfromstartrack4 & dial making back-to-back new alt accounts, both logged in and commenting in the same thread.
BlueIsAcreeper & Centeryofhate.
What a shit showm atleast its only buggering up queeri's threads.