I love you all. I recently had a post where I called myself a conservative. I didn’t realize this was controversial. I was drawing the contrast between lower case c conservatives and lower case l liberals. Many made comments that folks here weren’t conservatives. Then what are you? I don’t know political stuff. I’m not a kike so calm down asterisk jockeys. Raised hippy Christian/vaguely catholic. Prefer a sort of hybrid Jesusy/Roman pagan nature-centered lifestyle. Where the fuck do I fit.
I think I only recently came to terms with the detrimental effects of being raised by hardcore leftists. All the minorities I let take advantage of me in my younger years because they were “poor and oppressed”; fantasizing about being poor and downtrodden (we were pretty lower middle class but I desperately wanted to be “good,” liked and cared for; and poor and victimized was the only model I knew. I tried to keep my very conservative nature suppressed just to get along and keep my parents from detesting me, but even the most innocuous conservative viewpoint (like wishing I had access to school vouchers so I could go to one of the good schools instead of my school that was filled with violent minorities). I’m a woman though, so maybe it’s some feeling of obligation that kept me trying.
I just feel angry now at the ridiculous way I was brainwashed. Like, the only way to ever be happy is to work for a nice big corporation, and if you get laid off it’s the worst thing imaginable that could happen to you. I got laid off and started my own business, was happy ever since, but they treat me like I’m probably a drug addict or scam artist for doing so (I do copywriting for universities and have lots of clients, easy schedule, always have money unlike my wagecuck and unemployed relatives. I like guns and compete in the ski/shoot biathlon with a local outdoors group, and they treat me like I might shoot up a school at any moment. I showed them a pic of my new ultra light rifle and my sister literally screamed and made me put the picture away.
I know I should be over them but it makes me sad. They are so fucking miserable, attached to their phones all day every day and constantly aggrieved about something. Even though we are all white and they live in a white town, they bellyache about minorities and immigrants and it makes them even more miserable, despite these issues not affecting them.
I think I was just born conservative, but def living in a big city changed me into a hardcore Eurocentric conservative once I saw how their precious special groups actually were IRL. Maybe living in the boons makes it easy for them to stay dems because they don’t have to deal.
Anyway, I know y’all are going to say TLDR but had to rant it out. Would love to hear from anyone who feels the same.
