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I think I was depressed for the last couple of weeks.

submitted by PuttitoutIsGone to whatever 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:01:31 ago (+10/-1)     (whatever)

Not sure. I don't think I've ever really been depressed before.

Anyways I'm going to get some Ketamine. Have heard great things about it's ability to fight depression. I will make a post and let you know how it goes.


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[ - ] virge -3 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:05:13 ago (+1/-4)

So much low hanging fruit with this one.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 3 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:08:30 ago (+3/-0)

Explain please.

I am making an effort to be a better Goat and post some practical shit. What the fuck do you do?

[ - ] virge 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:14:47 ago (+1/-0)

I am making an effort to be a better Goat and post some practical shit.

Ok. Great news.

What the fuck do you do?

Immediately reverting to the same old subversive sophistry.

Checks out. Once a liar, always a liar.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:08:43 ago (+0/-0)

Me? The liar here? How goes that downloading of the internet? And aren't you the guy who claims to do 10k rounds at the range in a day? You weak as fuck.

[ - ] virge 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 09:14:12 ago (+1/-0)

Thanks for continuing to prove my point.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 10:26:02 ago (+0/-0)

Are you in a wheelchair?

[ - ] virge 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 11:25:25 ago (+1/-0)

You've never called me cranch before, that's interesting.

[ - ] account deleted by user 3 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:13:51 ago (+3/-0)

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[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:35:35 ago (+1/-1)

Mostly it's just been me thinking about regular things and feeling really bummed out about it. Really feeling it. Like I said, I haven't ever had this happen before. If it happens again I'll hit you up and let you pick my brain. I seem to be OK now.

If it was true depression I feel for depressed people. That shit hits you hard.

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:58:59 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:13:47 ago (+0/-0)

Weird thing is I have been doing a lot less media and actually sitting down at night and watching a movie makes me happy. I watched that Black Widow movie last night and had a great time. Just me, the cats and some weed.

I don't just randomly put on a movie. I plan it out, set a time...do snacks. Been doing that for about a week. I really don't know what it was I went through. I feel awesome today...having a great day. Weird.

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 23:35:52 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 03:29:33 ago (+0/-0)

I've put all the pieces of the puzzle together and I believe I figured out how I got to the point I did. Will send you a wall of text tomorrow.

[ - ] account deleted by user 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 12:12:11 ago (+1/-0)

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[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 12:50:58 ago (+0/-0)

OK...you happen to remember about a month ago I mentioned have to go to the doctor for my back? Well I did and have a procedure scheduled. Well out of the blue my sister claims she fucked up her back a few weeks ago. Same exact problem as me. Goes into the hospital for it. Before I go further, a little backround on little sis...she a junkie. Has been for 20 years now. Manages to keep a good job as a RSN/BSN by using the suboxone.

Well I'm hanging with her at the hospital and and started noticing everything she is telling the doctors and nurses are things I've told her about my back...sometimes it is straight up verbatim. I have her figured as faking at this point.I wanted to confront her on it but figured the MRI would bust her and she'd have to call it quits on the scam. Meanwhile she's talked her way back into getting percocets and some kind of shots for pain. Well the test results come back and they are a joke. Show absolutely nothing wrong. Nice, healthy back. No disk issues.
I figure it's over and she'd be packing up. Nope. She doubles down on the act and starts throwing fits of pain until gets her drugs.(the nurses had begun to ignore her completely at this point and the doctors were backing them).
Now it becomes apparent she is going after disability and is throwing away a high paying nursing job she has had for 30 years. This is where my depression kicks in. I was angry as hell at her and had quit talking to her. Just stopped thinking about her. Suddenly I can't sleep. I forgot to mention this part of the whole thing. Like no sleep at all. I bet I went 3 days at one point.

Now, I'm a pretty tough guy. Have hardened myself over the years when it comes to bullshit, but I think the situation got me...bad. Throw in the fact my family isn't saying shit...they just play along. Sad.

Now throw in the fact the sis has been talking to some asshole in prison for the past year and is moving him in as soon as he gets out, which is soon I guess and I'm over the edge. I can't believe she is throwing her whole life away is the most Springerish way possible. She a very good looking woman. Smart. Nice to talk to. No reason she has to do this prison guy thing.

Anyways throw in some other more minor bullshit and no sleep and boom...my first real bout with depression.

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 13:45:09 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 01:13:18 ago (+0/-0)

I've never done drugs, 'cept grog, but isn't weed a downer?

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 02:42:19 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] dingbat 3 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:18:31 ago (+3/-0)

Nature is always good for the soul, too.

[ - ] bopper 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:32:10 ago (+1/-0)

I had four treatments, for Anhedonia, didn't help but I might be the odd man out. If one is taking or abusing 'substances' and that's the true problem, that has to be dealt with more than anything.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:40:40 ago (+0/-0)

I do less drugs/alcohol when I'm feeling down.

[ - ] bopper 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 10:13:30 ago (+0/-0)

You have to eat right, the gut is important in neurotransmission function.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 10:27:05 ago (+1/-0)

Yes! And sleep. I believe lack of sleep played a big roll in what I went through. I forgot to mention that.

[ - ] bopper 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 24, 2021 13:59:47 ago (+0/-0)

Oh yeah, my doc says that'll really affect proper neurotransmitter function, certainly does me.

[ - ] PeckerwoodPerry 2 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:35:04 ago (+2/-0)

I've never had ketamine, but I do like to use lsd, shrooms, or mescaline about twice a year. For me it's like defragging the old grey matter hard drive. I actually did a theraputic dose of lsd a couple days ago. I had a lot to deal with the past few months, death in the family and one of my pets died. I'm not the type to cry, so shit gets bottled up. That said, Sunday night while tripping I cried my eyes out and feel much better for the experience. If you have any questions, or just want to talk let me know. I've been dealing with depression relatively unmedicated my whole life.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 2 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 13:38:53 ago (+2/-0)

I am way overdue for a trip. I have been putting it off because I know it will be a very emotional trip, not a fun time trip.
I have had an analog of Katamine and it worked wonders. So i think I'll give the K a shot before I go full on with the LSD.

[ - ] PeckerwoodPerry 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:53:29 ago (+0/-0)

Yeah, you do you. I intentionally place myself in a situation where I know it's more than recreational. It's not always smooth sailing, but that's where I find the most benefits. Like I said, I bottle shit up. I kind of have to be completely out of my mind to open that bottle and analyze the contents.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:50:55 ago (+0/-0)

Nothing better than the day after a trip. Everything fresh.

[ - ] PeckerwoodPerry 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:59:47 ago (+0/-0)

Ain't that the truth.

[ - ] NERVReplicant01 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:45:33 ago (+1/-0)

How much do you take for those trips?

[ - ] PeckerwoodPerry 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:49:28 ago (+1/-0)

I take roughly 500mcg of lsd when I do it, about 5 hits, when I take mushrooms it's about 4/4.5 grams. The mescaline is a little tricky because I extract it from san pedro cactus. Threshold for that is about a foot of fresh cactus, I usually use two feet to make the brew.

[ - ] NERVReplicant01 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 12:54:29 ago (+0/-0)

Maybe then I should consider upping my dosage on next trip. I've done 700mcg in the past, recently did 150mcg and it certainly left something to be desired. Never went over 3.5g of mushrooms, is another .5-1.0 grams that big of a difference?

[ - ] KCobain27 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:03:37 ago (+1/-0)

Besides the other suggestions, small daily doses of salvia divinorum are good for depression. I've heard good things about ketamine but never had it.

[ - ] gabara 2 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:10:31 ago (+2/-0)

It happens.

[ - ] Just_me 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:13:59 ago (+1/-0)

Odd timing, I'm rough lately as well... just burnt the fuck out, no motivation

[ - ] letsgetit 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:14:39 ago (+1/-0)

I think Keta works but only as long as you keep taking it. You may develop a dependence. You can low dose shrooms that might help long term. Or look for a natural supplement that mimics what SSRIs do. Regular exercise usually brings me out of a funk

[ - ] MuricaPersonified 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:20:16 ago (+1/-0)

Feeling similar. I have money, a good career, but no family nor time to find one. Getting older every day and feeling hopless with all the evil in this world making a mess of the populace. All I could do lately was sardonically quip about bullshit.

Anyway, dropped 200ug of LSD last night- first time in many years.

Unlike when I was younger, where it'd help show me what was wrong with me, this time it just spelled out what was already obvious. Still managed to have a good time, and think it'll have a positive impact on mood for a week or three.

I never was interested in ketamine, not because of its properties, but rather the properties of my own liver. That's off topic but it involves lack of/imbalance of two particular enzymes.

[ - ] goat777 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:28:31 ago (+1/-0)

Try 3.5g of shrooms. It will erase depression and anxiety.

[ - ] BoraxTheFungarian 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 14:56:47 ago (+1/-0)

Hoping you read this… Toxicity is the key to your illnesses. All of them. Get a reputable mishroom complex supplement. And if you need an extra mood boost, 5-HTP is the prescursor to great neurotransmitting chemicals like seratonin.

Take exact doses of the 5-HTP, and go ahead and slowly lean more into the mushrooms. The detoxing affect of the mishrooms may require breaks, but you’ll become a champion of health and well-being. There are so many natural resources.

[ - ] NERVReplicant01 1 point 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 12:57:07 ago (+1/-0)

I heavily disagree with this one. Serotonin is one of the main reasons for widespread depression, there are a host of maladies and health problems associated with high serotonin levels. The reason that psychedelics like LSD work wonders for depression is because they flush out serotonin during the trip, and your serotonin levels are lower after the fact. In that biochemical state, it is also much easier to reprogram your brain out of negative habits and into more positive ones. Dopamine is the happy chemical in your brain, not serotonin.

[ - ] Hermes 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 15:20:52 ago (+0/-0)

This

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:17:39 ago (+0/-0)

Are you saying to dose shrooms on a daily basis? I'm confused about the dosage.

[ - ] Psychicrussiaspy 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:32:04 ago (+0/-0)

Your gonna do special k. .......i would advise against that

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 15:42:46 ago (+0/-0)

Thx for looking out...I have tried many, many drugs over my lifetime. I'll be OK.

[ - ] Nosferatjew 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 16:25:51 ago (+0/-0)

The hold my bong "logic" of a drug user.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:49:41 ago (+0/-0)

I have a routine when trying new drugs or even a batch of stuff I usually do. I do a reagent test then always start very small...allergy test.

[ - ] Nosferatjew 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 18:16:12 ago (+0/-0)

lol good luck

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 22:22:25 ago (+0/-0)

What's your problem? Are you afraid of drugs? Do you not know how to do them?

[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 01:19:49 ago (+0/-0)

imo the only drug humans need to use (pain situations aside), and only once in their lifetime and preferably at the end of that life is...Nembutal.

[ - ] v0atmage 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 16:17:50 ago (+0/-0)

Ketamine is not a permanent solution for depression- the jew comedian Neal Brennan (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neal_Brennan) is the end result if you go down that path.

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:57:16 ago (+0/-0)

I wish I could believe everything I read on the internet. Gonna have to be one of those things I do for myself. And this isn't for long term depression...at least in this instance. I needed something to bump me in the right direction.

[ - ] Nosferatjew 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 16:24:15 ago (+0/-0)

Ketamine is not going to help you.

Stop jerking off and start working out.

[ - ] Kozel 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 16:55:25 ago (+0/-0)

Ketamine

How about not being a little bitch and sitting there and hating yourself until you figure out how to overcome and persevere?

[ - ] PuttitoutIsGone [op] 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:52:38 ago (+0/-0)

Why would I hate myself?

[ - ] Kozel 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 20:16:16 ago (+0/-0)

#TO OVERCOME WHAT YOU HATE AND BECOME BETTER THAN BEFORE

[ - ] ItalianMan 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 17:17:38 ago (+0/-0)

I think I was depressed for the past couple of years.

[ - ] kishind 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 21, 2021 18:25:52 ago (+0/-0)

The best way to fight depression is to find purpose in your life.

Easiest way to find purpose in your life is to help others with your greatest personal struggle (which you've overcome).

Fuck pills, go exercise.

[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 3.8 yearsJul 22, 2021 01:11:16 ago (+0/-0)

Yes I thought you were sounding a little off key but put it down to covid-fatigue. True depression is a shocking thing - not that I would know, but Comedian Spike Milligan, a WW2 vet, described it as "worse than a thousand Dresdens".