I've been reading on the subject of sleep deprivation, and it seems I could have given myself some kind of brain damage. I didn't, at least not in the long term, and thank God I quit when I did. I seemed to recovered well, but it took me a while after I quit to get used to keeping a regular sleep schedule. That, and eating proper food.
Sorry for the anon post, but I'd rather not share this under my user name.
I'm an only child. I grew up in severe poverty. My father committed suicide when I was 2. My mother married an abusive alcoholic Vietnam war veteran who beat me about once a week every time he got drunk. My biological father's parents gained custody of me when I was 7 and I lived with my grandparents for 4 years while they made me eat nothing but fast food and garbage until I gained weight and was picked on and bullied in school. Short fat kid with bad rosacea and body acne. Small deformed dick because of a botched circumcision. Surgical scars on my stomach and back because I was born with a twisted intestine and collapsed lung because my mom smoked and drank while she was pregnant with me.
I haven't done anything with my life. I'm just existing to die because I'm too scared to kill myself. I have CRIPPLING ANXIETY and Complex PTSD with severe depression and Borderline Personality Disorder.
I don't know what to do with myself because my life is pretty much over. I'm just drinking and getting high and eating myself til I die.
I'm honestly trying to have a heart attack. My birthday was 2 weeks ago and I thought about going to a gun range and putting a bullet in my head 2 days before my 41st birthday so I'd be "40 Forever".
I'm extremely sad and lonely. I don't have any friends or family. I sleep about 15 hours a day and rarely leave my apartment. I don't have a car. My stomach is always upset. I have either IBS or an IBD like Crohn's or UC. I have an cyst on my tailbone that keeps popping and I'm too scared to go to the doctor.
I don't know what to do with myself. Please help me. Seriously.
I was curious and I did regression hypnosis about decade ago. It felt extremely emotional, like a real memory I would have. I later found a place and met a person from those "dreams", but I thought better to ignore it all, thinking that I must have seen it in some movie, or whatever trick was played by or on my subconscious.
Stupid me, I did it again recently, out of boredom I guess. This time the images were not traumatic, on the contrary. So I looked around that place the name I found years ago with google maps, and I found the exact same beach that I saw in hypnosis, they have wells there near the beach too, was mind blowing. I have no interest in that place, even now I see it's beautiful there though, almost same as where I am now. Neither I have any interest in times around first world war, so I never watched some war movies. So how is this even possible?
Do you have any experience with this or any theories?
Stop clicking his shit. He just regurgitates content from elsewhere then spams it here for views. Plus you're just giving him your IP address if you aren't on a good VPN.
Plus he averages like one comment per month and has only given eight votes in 3.4 years. He's not a contributor, just a parasite.
I think everyone agrees the 2 party system is terrible. We vote for the one we hate the least. But both parties are happy with this system. Is America doomed with this system?
