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You need to detox. You're on a stimulant/ nicotine depressant/ alcohol roller coaster.

Coupled with your bodies own spiking/depleting serotonin cortisol & epinephrine responses to anxiety and anger, you're a mess.
The chemicals are obvious, you basically say so yourself. You could and should find ways to break that cycle.
Eventually you'll need to figure out the underlying psychological reason why you are hurting yourself and using what I call chemical static to destract from the root cause. You might need external help, whether a councilor head shrink type or DIY self help books and videos etc.
There are literally millions of people in your same position, but unlike many of them, you've already acknowledged that there is a problem that needs fixing. You're already on the road to betterment.

So, I drink mildly, take melatonin, L-Triptaphen (sp?), and L-Theanin

I sleep very, very well. No grog, sometimes a headache in the morning because of the drinking.

Stop jerking off. That's killing your hormones, maybe fuckin' wit yo mind, too.

"Imagine all four corners of your bedroom ceiling with DEMONS crouching like spiders. They are hissing, and trying to attack you. There is no escape, no exit. They are black, but in the darkness you can see they are blacker than the darkness. They want to rip you apart. You call on, and BEG the HOLY SPIRIT to help protect you. HE DOES, but it is a relentless, all-night battle. 5-6 AM when light finally shows through the drapes it stops, but you are exhausted."

I'll let other anons tackle the medical aspects you are trying to deal with...I dive into the sci-fi world info and "wooville" conspiracies. Here is my two cents on your dreams

These entirely malicious, shadow people let's call them for simplicities sake...are essentially the "demons" that "possess" people in demonic possession stories (the ones that aren't bs). From what I understand the "holy spirit" is not what you should be invoking to deal with the shadow people. Try instead the name of Jesus Christ, for example, one phrase I've come across multiple times is the following

By the authority granted unto me by the blood of Jesus Christ, I command you to disperse from this place immediately(and permanently).

^The "important" part of this phrase is the first bit, after "I command" you can use any number of words to expel them, so long as you use "strong and definitive language" no "maybe's" or anything like that, also try to avoid using the word "Not" as well

The other phrase or method seems to be simply to invoke a request to Jesus for assistance/help, be it through speaking it during say a night terror, or thinking it or speaking it in your dreams during sleep. I would try the first one first, keep in mind any action taken "against" them, such as anything other then cowering in fear in your bed at the sight of them, will be interpreted as an "undesirable" action by them and the hissing would most likely increase in an attempt to intimidate and invoke more fear.

It is your fear of them that they are drawn to...or to put it more accurately, it is the fear you have of them that they seek to be in close proximity to for "feeding purposes". Why do you think you perceive "no exit" in your room when they are surrounding you? Because you are afraid of them, that fear gives them control over that "mindspace". They can alter it as they please, it is their realm after all (the astral plain for lack of a better term)

The first aspect of thought you must change is that when encountering the shadow people, they do not control your space, you control your space, for the authority has already been given to you by Jesus, the Word of God must be obeyed by these creatures. It's almost like simon says...if you invoke the name of Jesus and command them to behave in a certain way, they are bound by divine law to do so, but only if you "Command" them...if you simply ask them a question they are under no obligation to speak truth.

To give you an idea of what to expect from what i've read, there are "two types" of shadows...the feeders and the possessors...feeders are weaker, pack hunter style, usually take on more animalistic forms. Possessors are usually more humanoid in form but not always, they seem to be much "stronger" in the amount of fear and terror they invoke when they are present, also their appearance during "night terrors" seems to indicate a greater ability to "Step across the veil" then the feeders.

Not really sure if any of the crazy shit out there is real but that's what i've dug up by myself in general terms about the shadows


Not sure how old you are, but if you read this, could you check out a TV series on youtube, find a clip from it, show is called "Babylon 5"...there is a species in that show called "the shadows" find a clip from youtube and just compare it's general shape to the "spider shadows" in your dreams.

One thing that helped me a lot during the times I experienced this was that I decided to count the time I’m in bed with my eyes closed as quality sleep. Whether my brain was on or not. As long as I was lying in bed and my eyes where closed, I was asleep. This improved my days incredibly. I became more rested and less stressed during the day since I just accepted I was in bed my eyes where closed, I was asleep.

maybe you need to kill

some time doing gardening or something?

Sounds like you might need a CPAP.

Try extended melatonin(life extension brand) or dark red cherries before bed.

Magnesium Glycinate is a good relaxant as well.

We all are in this together.

Nerve pain is a bitch.

Get checked for diabetes.

We all lift this burden of life together. I’ve found a new workout song https://www.voat.xyz/viewpost?postid=630d57f71f137

https://youtu.be/mPTCq3LiZSE

Cold: the air and water flowing.
Hard: the land we call our home.
Push to keep the dark from coming,
Feel the weight of what we owe.

This: the song of sons and daughters,
Hide the heart of who we are.
Making peace to build our future,
Strong, united, working 'till we fall.

Cold: the air and water flowing.
Hard: the land we call our home.
Push to keep the dark from coming,
Feel the weight of what we owe.

This: the song of sons and daughters,
Hide the heart of who we are.
Making peace to build our future,
Strong, united, working 'till we fall.

And we all lift, and we're all adrift together, together.
Through the cold mist, 'till we're lifeless together, together.


To me this song is about the torch we’ve been passed from our ancestors and how it’s up to is all to keep the light of the world shining. We’ll each do the best we can and together we’ll rage against the dark.

Rage against the dying of the light.

You need vitamins badly. And not that multivitamin crap

I bet you don't do anything to fix yourself though. For some reason people in your state won't. They'll nod and agree and keep doing what they were doing.

Vitamin B6 And B12. You need to eat meat and eggs are good too.

Vitamin D and C. Don't take too much D, it's fat soluble and can build up in your system over time.

Cheap easy try for a short-term fix: try a few benadryl.

you're a wreck, you should start living healthier.

Dadgum… you’re really fucked up bro.

That being said, it seems like you’re asking for help. It’s gonna be a total mind bender and pain in the ass, but just start focusing on good things… like, literally, spend your time doing stuff you know is good.

There are still days I don’t drink a smoothie, and days I just choose beer over water, but the more you practice the good stuff, the easier it is to choose it.

Get Ambien for sleep. Bath salt for feet. Soaking in ice water and then taking your foot out to warm up, then back in helps with feet pain.

You been reading my mind?

Voat=/=your personal blog

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