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I'm part of a dispensationlist church and holy crap, you'd think these people think death and destruction is a GOOD thing. They get overjoyed at the idea of their entire country going to shit. Mixed with suicidal apathy, and you'd think these people WANT to die. Such blatant lack of care for anything and everything. These assholes would fuck over their own kids to virtue signal to niggers. They'll help anyone but their own, going so far to outcast anyone who trying to maintain some sense in their teachings. And when their own kids hate them, and want nothing to do with their cultist bullshit, they think it's God teaching them a lesson. No, stop being a fucking retard and realize your kids hate you for forcing your virtue signaling, suicidal ideology onto them. An ideology where they need to endlessly sacrifice their money and time, only to get fucked over at every turn.

In experimentation with sleep cycles I've found myself waking up in weird states of mind.

Most specifically, sometimes I wake up and my mind is somehow unaligned with reality. And I have deep thoughts, and upon exploring those thoughts I can sometimes reach a state of what I would describe as a mental orgasm, a release of energy at where my neck where my head connects.

For example, some time ago I woke up in such a state in the middle of the night whilst undergoing my annual anti parasite schedule, and I forgot what the idea was but I had a complex idea. An unrestrained flow of thoughts. I verbally articulated it as if I was giving a speech. I never verbally articulate. When I concluded I had multiple pulsations of pleasure and energy in my brain stem.

In my dream states (asleep), I now often find myself creating energy balls from my hands like in dragonballz. I try it after I wake up and it never works. Similarly I find myself flying a lot.

As result now when I lay to sleep my body is immediately yearning for flight and mana balls.